Awake Being A Gentleman

I'm the only one awake in this house at this hour. 

Probably the only person who's stuck with materials to read while grooving to PSY's new song, Gentleman :O

Call me crazy but exam does things to you. 

True story bro. 

Kinda screwed up my biological clock but that's not today's topic lol. 

I'm recently KINDA addicted to PSY's new song :O

Makes me wanna dance to it whenever I hear it!

I'm now considering KPop LOL!

Never though it would even be something to consider about. 

Contemporary dance is definitely in the list of things to do with the boy =P

A friend recommended Sole to Soul Dance studio but their only intake is in January :(

So if any of you readers have a place to recommend, you can either leave a comment or message me directly :)

Anyways, the song. Yes it is catchy. 

BUT, the music video is a bit .... 

I ain't gonna post the link here or anything cause I kinda don't like the music video. 

The starting of the song is so damn funny. 

I'm not sure if I am the only one but when he goes "Alangamun-la weh", it's damn funny LOL. 

I'd like to freaking dance to this Gentleman song soon xD 

The reason why I am posting this is because I am dead bored of studying. 

And damn, having 6 papers for finals is just insane. 

So insane that my system has gone haywire. 

Been eating a lot. 

And I think I gained a bit but the weighing scale tells me a different story. Zzz. 

Had Suki-Ya last Friday & had it again, two days ago which is on a Monday. Lol. 

And I am still craving for it now :/ 

Too delicious I guess & hehe, this time they have that rice ice cream. 

Usually they have the green tea ice cream which is also awesome but heh, this rice ice cream only appears like once in a while. Lol. 

I forgot what it's called but I am pretty sure there is "rice" in it haha. 

Okay, I'll have to go now or I'll keep talking and thinking about Suki-Ya and how good it smells and tastes. 

Lol, shiz.
Alright, goodnight ! 

Issues With Rules

I've just noticed that most of my blog post are usually written at night, or super early in the morning like now. 

To be honest, I do love the environment at night much better than the day. 

It's more peaceful :)

Anywaysss, there is something that I NEED to blog about. 

Something that Andrew posted as his status earlier today about rules for dating men.

Here are the contents of it. 

RULES FOR DATING MEN (Ladies take notes :D)
Finally, the guys' side of the story. We always hear "the rules" from the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules! Please note..

1. Men ARE not mind reader

2. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

3. Crying is blackmail.

4. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!

5. Yes and No are perfectly Acceptable answers to almost every question.

6. Come to us with a problem only If you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

7. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.

8. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

9. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys..

10. If something we said can be interpret in two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

11. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

12. Whenever possible , Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

13. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

14. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

15. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

16. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear

17. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as football, cars, bikes or games

18. You have enough clothes.

19. You have too many shoes.

20. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

There ya have it! 

I do agree with some of them but the others are just.. bullshit.

Here are my responses to the above rules. 

1. YOU DON'T SAY. Ladies are not mind readers as well! But of course after being with a person for a while, you will notice the habits & behavioural patterns of a person.

And when you know a person's patterns, you would be able to tell when a person is angry, sad, disappointed, etc, etc.

2. First of all, I'm not sure about other girls but I do not view shopping as a sport. Who the heck would? Lol. 

Maybe there are some girls who view it as a sport mainly because shopping involves walking I guess? LOL. 

I'm not entirely sure though. & MIND YOU, in some relationships, GUYS are the ones who shop more than the girl. Also, it is really UNFAIR for guys to be complaining when they expect girls to give them opinion about their  clothes but when tables are turned, they just idle away -_-

3. Crying CAN be blackmail. It depends really. 

If the girl is super emotional, then duhh, she can't freaking help it man. lol. 

It also comes down to how well you know your girl. Not all cries are blackmail. 

4. Personally, this is what I do. HAHAH. I SUCK big time in giving subtle hints.

The thing about this is, not everything asked will be given.

A very good example is guys and their games.

If your girlfriend is sad & ask you to stop playing your game to attend to her, would you stop?

The fact that the girl even has to ask that is an INSULT to the dude man.

So about asking, don't ask us to ask when you can't provide.

5. Yes & No. Obviously they are acceptable answers but sometimes there may be other answers. 

Don't only target girls on this. Guys are sometimes indecisive as well. 

One of the most annoying answers I get from him is, "I don't know" -_-

If you're talking about constant indecisiveness, then yes it is annoying!

6. First off, you're a boyfriend. You're supposed to be there for her. 

& by saying that sympathy is what girlfriends are for, are you saying that guys have no ability to empathize?

The thing about women when it comes to ranting is that it makes us feel better.

You guys are not Bob The Builder who needs to fix everything yo.

Listening takes way less effort than thinking of ways to solve the issue, so why not just listen?

7. I've no idea what is this about actually. So I won't say anything about this. 

8. In an argument, sometimes things get heated up & people say things they don't mean.

Having said that, it does not mean that it is forgivable to take advantage of the previous things that your partner told you. 

For instance, let's say the word "worthless" reminds your partner of how his/her parents does not approve him/her, don't go using that on your partner just to have more impact. 

It will stay in the person's head for a very long time. 

Stay away from sensitive issues to avoid being attacked by what you said to her in an argument. 

Cognitively, one should be able to control him/herself when it comes to matters like this. 

If not, please go & learn some self control skills. 

9. HAHAHA, I'll tell you a story about this. 

I used to dress up every single time I go out. 

I LOVED dressing up in general, & for the boy. 

BUT, one fine day, I was asked to dress down or not even dress up. 

So, hmm... 

10. This is a contradiction to the saying that guys say it as it is. Enough said. 

11. If we were to tell you how to do things but you don't possess the listening skills, how? 

& since you proclaim that solving problem is what you guys do, shouldn't you know the BEST way to do certain things? Lol.

12. LOL, I don't talk during movies.

If anything, he'd be the one nibbling on my fingers & nails. 

Sometimes even tickle me. PFFT.

& if we're talking about TV shows or whatever shows, I'm the on who usually gets interrupted -_-

13. Christopher Columbus did not need directions. 

You guys are not Christopher Columbus.
Therefore, you guys need directions. 

If you know your way around, do your thing man. Ain't nobody's gonna be in your way. 

But if you are LOST, it wouldn't hurt to ask for directions unless you want to be stranded with your ego. 

It'd sound really dumb if people were to know you were stranded or stuck somewhere just because you don't want to open your damn mouth & ask for directions.

The funny thing is that Andrew, most of the time asks me for directions even if he sometimes know the way, or so he claims hahaha.

If it's not me, it's the GPS. 

So.. guys & directions? 

Technology is now helping you. What do you have to say now? 

14. Haha this is probly true =P

15. This comes down to knowing your girl & how much you care about her. 

Take the time to understand that some girls take time to open up. 

If you're just gonna sit back & say that it isn't worth the hassle, why do you even bother having a girlfriend?

To maintain a relationship, you will have to juggle your time & you will need to put in effort.

ESPECIALLY if the relationship exceeds a year. 

The two people in the relationship should already know each other's tendencies at their fingertips. 

The girl should know when her boy is down, angry, disappointed, etc etc. VICE VERSA.

A relationship is a two way thing man. 

& Like everything else, everything needs effort. 

NOTHING in life is hassle free man. 

16. Ahah, this works both ways. But if you know your other half is sensitive, sugar coat it a little bit :)

17. Really? Is that ALL guys think about ? I don't think so. 

If that's all that is in your mind, wtf man. Get a life.

Never think about future & stuff? 

Swag ain't gonna pay your bills man. 

Kinda disappointed that he shared this because I know it's not the case for him. 

He thinks about science and other stuff too. 

& it's nice hearing him speak so passionately about science stuff :)

Somewhat enlightening ^^

18. Heheheh, girls have more choices than guys anyways. 

Girls have dresses, skirts, jeans, long pants, shorts, jumpsuits, etc etc.

Guys don't have that many choices so.. technically, guys won't have that many clothings. 

19. Guilty as charged ! LOL!

20. Andrew LOVES camping ;)

There you have it! All my thoughts & comments about these rules. 

I don't even know how "You have enough clothes" is a rule LOL!

Anyway, these rules are unreliable because not all girls & guys are the same.

& I won't be surprised if the roles of guys & girls switch. 

Some guys these days are really like girls. Haha.

& what the hell lah, who's so damn free to come up with these rules?

With different people, of course there'd be different kind of rules. Tskk. Ridiculous! 

I didn't even know that rules to date women existed, what more men?

Zzz. 

That's all I have to say about this. 

Ciaozers!

Too Little, Too Late ?

It's late Jan & this is only my 4th post :O

Too late to do something about it now. HAHAH. 

Please forgive me for I am in a very weird moos right now. lol. 

Just thought of an inside joke & dayumm it was funny ass. 

It still is funny. Lol.

So anyways, Chinese New Year is coming pretty soon. 

CAN'T WAIT FOR THE COOKIES :D

There is one thing that I am worried about now though. 

As ya'll know, I fell & I have a wound that is pretty bad. 

Although it is healing now, I am not sure if it's going to be fully healed for CNY & if it isn't, it's gonna be so hardd :(

I don't think it is possible for it to heal completely by the time CNY is here but I hope that I am healed enough to be able to stretch my arm & reach out for stuff. 

My right arm movements have been pretty restricted as i can't really straighten it =/

Also it hurts to bend it =/
Did I also mention that I had an injection on the same arm as my wound? Haha.

Doctor says I have to exercise my arm & not let it just be stiff so I have to move it once in a while despite the pain.

Went for an event today & danced with the wound hahha.

Kinda painful but after that alcohol swab, it's bearable. lol

Pictures to be posted up soon :)

This is just a short one hahaha. 

Probably just because I feel like it =P

Oh, and a little update on the new blog. 

It's up but it's not running yet. 

Still getting some things sorted :) 

Everything should be sorted by Feb ehhe. 

Somehow the month of Jan still seems like a holiday month LOL.

It's bad, I know. 

Haha, good thing that Jan is coming to an end then hehe. 

I shall be heading to bed now :) 

Kinda early for me to be doing so haha. 

Will blog about the reason why soon :)

Nighty nights peeps ! :)

What's What ?

I've recently come across blog post that is very interesting & it got me thinking. 

Kinda rare to find blog post like that nowadays. 

I came across it because it was my friend who posted it up :D

The post can be found here :)

The post on the 25th of May talks about how stubborn and determined, both carry the same meaning. 

I find it intriguing after thinking about the similarity and differences between those two words.

A fine line between those two. 

Stubborn has a negative connotation to it whereas determined carries a positive connotation. 

So how exactly does one use stubborn and determined?

If you devise a plan that won't work and you still go on with it, does that mean you're stubborn or does that mean you're super determined?

Perhaps being stubborn has an element of overestimating oneself's ideas.

People who are stubborn usually wouldn't listen to anyone when someone tells them that their ideas are flawed. 

Determined people, hmm, maybe they are more open towards criticism about their ideas and they fix it afterwards. 

Take for example, the route to One Utama. 

There are many different ways to go to One Utama but when a stubborn person only knows one way to go there, he/she won't listen to anyone else who presents a shorter way of getting there.

That is the best analogy that I can come up with at this hour. Lol. 

So yeah, that's one of the distinctions that I can make :)

Next up, the post on the 9th of June about labels. 

I have to admit that after reading that, I felt like taking up criminology as an elective if it is offered. Lol. 

Pretty interesting really. 

I don't know why I have not thought about it. 

Probably because I didn't want to be a criminologist or something. Lol. 

So anyways, the question of labels.

According to what I read in my friend's blog, when you label someone as a criminal, they tend to act more like what they are labelled. 

Diverting this from criminals, in our everyday lives, if someone keeps scolding you stupid or lazy, all the time, is there a possibility that one might actually believe them?

Perhaps that theory of labeling can also be applied to this?

I'm not really sure so when I research more about it, maybe I will do one whole post on it. Lol.

So then another question posted up by my friend, Xiau Wei, revolves around the way we act in relation to our labels. 

Do we in any way behave a certain way because we want to fulfill the label given or are behaving in a such a way that we get certain labels?

I guess in this case it really depends on the label itself and the value in which a person holds.

Let's say some dude A is labelled as a playboy. He probably did something in order for him to be called that. But then again, that something that he did may be unintentional. 

So in this case, if his belief is such that he does not play with other people's feelings, he wouldn't fulfill the label given to him.

However, if he finds it hard to prove to others that he is not a playboy, the easy way out is just to behave like one and that's when a person behave a certain way just to fulfill the label given.

Or maybe it is a two step process thing. 

First we behave in a certain way to gain a certain label, and after that, we'd behave in such a way that we want to fulfill that hard earned label.

Reasons for maintaining label probably can be linked back to none other than external reinforcements.

Perhaps behaving in a certain way can bring benefit to oneself and makes oneself feel good about themselves. 

Hence, they repeatedly behave a certain way to get the label and do anything and everything in their power to maintain that label.. 

The last question regarding this matter is, What will happen if someone gets in their way of fulfilling their labels that they strive to hard to maintain and protect?

I'll leave that question as it is right now. 

Have to go to bed now. 

Too sleepy to blog any longer Lol. 

3AM now. 

Goodnight ya'll! 

Hypocrisy Amusement

I find it amusing how people older than me can be so immature.

Not saying that I'm very mature and that I'm right in everything I say because obviously I am NOT God.

All I'm saying is, GROW UP. 

Be more responsible man. 

And I honestly don't care how much salt you consumed more than me. 

I only care about you modelling good behavior for younger generations to follow.

Is that too much to ask ?

Heck, PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH.

Don't come telling me that I should tell you things beforehand when you don't.

Common sense will tell you that I have my own plans. 

So don't expect me to comply with your plans when you don't give a shit about mine.

It's not that I don't want to help out. 

I would LOVE TO, trust me. 

Just that the last minute notices is a huge turn off. 

Also it is never really being appreciated. 

What do I get in return? 

MORE LECTURES AND THINGS TO DO. 

Excuse me but I thought you said my job was just to study hard? 

Now you want to flood me with stupid responsibilities like closing my siblings windows and yours?

Don't you have your own God-given hands to do it yourself ? 

Before going out I have to close EVERYONE'S window and push the clothes in. 

Not to mention that if I eat or drink, I have to wash it myself.

And when I'm back and so damned tired from uni, I HAVE TO keep the clothes, take in letters, open all the damned windows and bla bla bla. 

By the time the night sky arises, I would have to wash my own plate, wipe the table, take up my clothes, bring down rubbish and answer stupid questions. 

Sounds tiring ? 

Heck I haven't even added the amount of things I need to do. 

Like studies, assignments and my own leisure time. 

And you DARE say I don't do enough ? 

You dare say i am not responsible? 

Every single day I have to fucking  schedule my time so that I will be home when necessary. 

Think I'm so free to just come home and wait around and do house chores? 

I want to fucking be able to go for volleyball and do whatever I want. 

So much for a nourishing uni experience. 

As if last year's experience wasn't hindered enough. 

I am darn pist off because my efforts are not appreciated. 

You NEVER fail to ask me to reflect on myself. 

Maybe you should try reflecting on yourself.

On how unappreciative you are towards all the things that I have done. 

The time in which i suggested to come up with a schedule on house chores, you didn't wanna take that suggestion.

Only recently, like two days ago, you finally realized what a good idea it was. 

But guess what.

I HAVE TO COME UP WITH THE SCHEDULE. 

Dafuq, am I the one parenting now? 

To heck with that. 

I don't have so much time to invest in stupid things. 

Just like in the business world, if the ROI is low, cut cost until the business is aborted. 

I've played my cards & now I just don't want to play 'em anymore. 

Don't say I didn't try because I did. 

And fyi, I have my own boiling point. 

So it would be redundant to ask me why I snapped. 

You can tell me that you're tired when you come back from work and expect me to help you but when I am tired, what do I get ? 

Nothing less of a LECTURE. 

The exact words - " If you come back tired, next time don't come back so late."

And it was only 12midnight. 

Ridiculous much ? -_-

Seriously, just don't expect anything from me anymore. 

If that's all I'm gonna get, I might as well just do nothing. 

Happier that way. 

You  mind your business, I mind my own. 

It's not like I have ever had any support from you anyways. 

And stop blaming me for almost anything you can put a finger on.
Take your own advise and check yourself.

P/S : And if you're wondering why I've been losing so much weight, it's stress from all directions & the lack of destressors. I've been eating don't worry. I love food too much to ever give it up. 

Insights

Love. 

A simple four letter word but complicated as hell.

It is indeed easy to say "I love you" but it takes a lot to prove that you do.

Words are only words until actions are there to back 'em up :)

And of course each and every day is an opportunity to show someone how much you really love them.

Valentines Day is not the only day to express your love you know. 

In fact, it should be done everyday because you won't know what will happen tomorrow.

Again this comes down to appreciating every single person who means something to you in your life :)

But this post isn't about appreciation, it's about love. 

I love my boyfriend, Andrew Chong very much.

There isn't a second in a day where I don't think about him. 

I'm always thinking about what he's up to and all.

Maybe I care too much, I don't know =/

Love makes people go crazy sometimes & maybe I am going crazy :O

Or perhaps I'm just crazy in love? 

Can be good, can be bad. Lol. 

I really love him to death, literally. 

I don't think he knows this but whenever he needs me there, I'm ready to just drop everything. 

I love having him around.

Makes me feel so safe.

Maybe that's why whenever he's not around, I feel vulnerable to stuff like bad memories =/

I'm not sure if he's aware of the things I do for him. 

I remember all the times where I made things for him.

I put all my effort in getting it done. 

Thought some are not perfect, I tried my best yo. 

I even invested a lot of time in planning his party from the guestlist to the itinerary :)

I had assignments due dates & mid terms a day after that party yet it did not slow me down :')

Instead, I gave the party a higher priority than anything else just cause I wanted it to be perfect for him.

Whenever he needs me, I'd just drop everything & go. 

I wonder if he knows that. 

I really wonder if he knows how much he means to me. 

If ever he isn't feeling well, I'd of course want to take care of him. 

And just some times ago like maybe an hour ago, he texted me telling me that he felt like puking. 

Trust me, I was so ready to drive over to see if he was okay right after I call him to check if everything's fine. 

That's how much he mean to me. 

I would personally sneak out of my house just to go to him if he really needs me. 

I would stay up just to talk to him if he can't sleep or if he needs someone to rant to. 

I am honestly sincerely always here for him. 

I hope he knows that. 

I am very well aware of the dangers of making yourself too available for a person. 

It has been one of the reasons why people take others for granted.

I hope it isn't gonna happen to me.

But all that matters is his happiness ain't it? 

Sometimes I think that what I do isn't really enough to full express what I feel for him. 

No words nor actions can be sufficient.

If only my heart can give out rays of light, I think he'd be blinded by then xD

So haha, not a good idea after all. 

I wanna spend everyday with him but obviously he has his own things to do as well so another bad idea. Sighs. Somebody gimme some ideas man. 

Since we're at it right now, I guess I should apologize for not being able to find ways to fully express my love for you babe. 

I don't show it sometimes but it's only because I'm overwhelmed by other emotions.

I'm sorry if I come off as a moody bitch sometimes but those are times where I really just need you to hug me & keep my mouth shut. 

When I talk to much or when I get angry, just pull me close & hug me tight.

Trust me, I'll vaporize in no time ;)

Your hugs & kisses makes a lot of difference. 

Even your voice itself can cheer me up :)

And your smile, oh how it lights up the entire mood.

It's hard not to smile when you're smiling really :)

I really hope you know that I love you to death.

That's the most important thing you need to know.

And please never forget that.

S.A.D.

 S.A.D. stands for Seasonal Affective Disorder.

It's a type of depression triggered by seasons of the year. 

Duh, Malaysia has no four seasons but heck this time round, it's been raining like mad everyday. 

And I hardly ever see the sun so that's the only explanation for my constant dullness.

I LOVE the sun & I can't wait to go tanning the next time. 

Standing next to my boy makes me look like some friggin dead person -_-

And yeah, did I mention that I lost so much weight that my clothes are getting loose ? 

I wear a size S and it is now getting loose.

Something's seriously wrong with me. 

It's not like I don't eat or anything.
And when it comes to appreciating food, I sure as hell love them. 

I will NEVER in my life throw up food I just ate on purpose. 

I LOVE my food & I hardly ever share so yeah xD

Even my mum came up to me and ask me if I am doing anything to myself. 

It's ridiculous man. Sighs. 

Imma go de-worm or smth. 

Or maybe it's just stress but heck, I have nothing to stress about anymore.

Exams are over, no more assignments. 

Ugh, oh well. 

I just hope it's nothing serious.

Maybe I'm stressing cause I'm tryna find me :O

Take this advise from me, NEVER lose yourself.

It is the scariest shit ever. 

Imagine this, you don't even know who you are. 

Imagine you don't have an identity & you're just going with the flow of what everyone else wants you to be. 

It might not hit you immediately but it will hit you when you're alone.

The point where you don't know what to do when you're alone. 

It seriously just sucks.

And it makes your life very dull & boring.

For some people losing themselves brings about self discovery. 

They find out things they never knew about themselves.

There are also some that are like me, who doesn't gain much out of it.

All I can think of is a better, stronger & unbreakable me. 

Cause i already everything there is to know about myself. Lol. 

Identities aside, I don't know if i should blame it on the weather.

These days I have been thinking a great deal about everything that happened in my life. 

All the good and bad. 

Thinking about them both, one after the other has the ability to make me seem like I have a bipolar disorder.

Which I clearly do not have! Lol. 

And sometimes when I think about the bad, it takes over everything else. 

Almost like an unstoppable storm that causes flash floods in my head. 

It is tough to fight all these off. 

And sometimes I do get tired so yeah. 

Many believe that happiness is a state of mind and perhaps it is. 

Focusing on the good, happy, joyous moments in life can make one a very content person.

:)

After all that has been said, there's only one thing left to say. 

Do excuse me if I seem bipolar xD

Weather's not really helping either. Pfft. 

Gotta go now. 

Dinner & Snowflake after with Yen ;)

Tatas!

Hot & Cold

We as human beings all want different things in life.
Some yearn for materialistic things & others yearn for intangible goods like comfort, acceptance or even love.

For a person like me, I yearn for intangible goods more than anything in the world.

And I am pretty sure I am not the only one who yearns for intangible goods ;)

I'm not sure if it's safe to say that most people wants to be accepted for the way they are but it is one of the many things people want. 

Isn't that what most people look for in a relationship?

Someone who can accept the good and the bad?

A relationship is all about compromise right?

Give & take. That's what everyone says. 

Companionship, another intangible good that is wanted by many.

Someone to be there whenever your world's tumbling down. 

Someone to share happy times & sad times as well. 

Lastly, someone to love.

Loving someone and being loved back is the best thing in the world. 

So be brave enough, take a chance and express your love or else be ready to watch that someone love someone else.

Love brings many good things. 

Love has everything in it. 

Companionship, acceptance, comfort, love, joy, and lots more. 

It also has the necessary obstacles for the relationship to grow so don't expect a relationship to be smooth all the time cause every relationship is bound to have a few disagreements on certain things. 

And when that happens, of course it'll include disappointment, sadness and all. 

Like I said earlier, love has everything in it. 

But what do you do when it's on and off?

Some relationships are like that.

One day it might seem like forever is just within your reach but the next day, it might not even exist anymore.

It's like hot & cold. 

Like an ON and OFF button :O

And with this you can instantly tell that the component that is missing here is stability.

It may be communication problem or just some simple misunderstanding.

It's not the end of the world don't worry. 

All is well if solved the proper way :)

The best resort is to pray. 

Pray for a calm mind before blurting out words that may hurt.

And when the mind is already calm, there's that rational thinking without the interference of overwhelming emotions.

Always remember this one thing, whether you're in a relationship or not, never take anything for granted & appreciate what you have no matter how little it might be. 

Some other people in the world are worse off. 

Little blessings like having water to drink & food to eat are meant to be appreciated.

And I'm serious about not taking things for granted. 

The people who've been there for you, thank them.

Doesn't matter if they've only been there for you once, they still did help you through.

And if you have someone putting you as their priority, don't ever think they'll always be there for you because the truth is, people get tired of waiting to be appreciated.

The illusion of one who will always be there should be wiped away because we don't know what might happen the next day. 

There were too many cases of people regretting not appreciating the little things done.

So take this moment to think. Think of those people who have been there at a certain period of time to help, to listen and to comfort.

Be thankful & never look down on the little things.

It's the little things in life that make up the bigger picture :)

Appreciate what you have to day & you'll find that you'll feel more satisfied :)

And in the end, you'll feel happier :)

Turn Around & Face It!

Very well said.

Each time when a problem arises, be it family, friendship or relationship problems, don't run away from it. 

Some people would rather just forget about it and pretend like it never happened but lemme tell you this, someday, somehow, it will come back again. 

Unresolved issues don't solve itself and it will always be there if you don't do something about it.

It's just like being chased by a stray dog. 

If you just keep running, it will keep chasing you. 

Instead of using all the energy to run, why not turn around and chase the dog instead? 

Let's just say you found a place to hide.

Do u think the dog will just disappear? 

Sooner or later, the hideout's gonna be found yo. 

And if you keep running, eventually you'll run out of steam & you'll let the dog bite you or whatever not.

It's the same concept really. 

If you don't want the problem to consume you, face it.

After all, problems should be seen as opportunities to better yourself.

And optimism is the way to go :)

Have a happy day folks! 

Uncalled For

Hi, I'm Vania & here are some things that everyone should know about me.

I stand up for what I believe and I fight for my rights.

I don't give no two shits about what strangers think of me.

And I don't care if you're older than me or anything, as long as you don't practice what you preach, don't expect me to listen. 

And if I don't like you, I'll be very open about it. 

So open that I'll make it obvious to you.

And if I'm nice to you in front of a group, I'm not being two faced, I'm simply putting it aside so we all can have fun instead of causing some kind of drama. 

But if and only if, you try to provoke me, I'll make sure you don't have a face in public anymore.

I give you my word.

What really brought me to blog right now is the attitudes of us human beings.

That being said, everyone is selfish in one way or another.

I for one is selfish when it comes to Andrew. 

And haha, that will NEVER change ;)

But others in the world, they're selfish in a sense that all they care about is themselves.

They don't give no two shits about anyone else. 

I really despise those kind of people.

The kind of people who will only find you when they need something.

I call them "Users" because they don't know how to differentiate human beings and things. 

And I'm not blowing my own horn or whatever but I have always been there 24/7 for everyone, just in case they needed someone to talk to. 

My poor phones never sleep. 

Just because I care too much. 

Too bad there ain't many selfless people in the world. 

Glad to be one of them really. 

I mean it when I say that I'm always here. 

Those three words bring about a very huge responsibility. 

So don't go around misusing them aight.

By saying that, you're telling someone that you will be there always no matter what happens. 

Being there for someone is an act of putting all your own worries aside just to listen & help out.

It doesn't mean that when you have problems, you just disappear. 

That's very irresponsible.

So think twice before saying that to someone else. 

While we're on this topic of selfishness, I recently just experienced some fucked up situation involving my parents. 

Like I said earlier, I don't care if you're older than me, as long as you make me lose respect for you, you're gone.

Some of you may find this very disrespectful and what not but I have been forced to do nothing but defend myself since young.

If you wanna go ahead and be judgemental, great! 

Cause I don't give a damn anyways. 

So back to the experience.

My babyboy, Andrew, wanted to surprise me by letting me know that I'll be going on the Cherating trip with him and his family.

BUT, the plan didn't work out 'cause my dear MUM, said NO.

I don't know if she's been blind or deaf all this while.

I've been saying I wanna go on a holiday.

And since we're not going anywhere this year, what the hell is so wrong about going holiday with my dear boyfriend and his family ?!

I know why she said no.

She probably wants me to help out with the house situation since the maid's going home after my exams.

But like HELLO? 

17 & 18th December's are both WEEKENDS!

Which means both parents will be around! 

WHY THE HELL DO I NEED TO BE AROUND!

AND IT'S MY BIRTHDAY SURPRISE FOR GOODNESS SAKE. 

What a fucking mean ass.

You want me to help you ?

Seriously, I HAVE BEEN HELPING YOU SINCE FOREVER! 

Do you know how many times both my parents went overseas and just left us kids behind in the house & I have to take charge?

And I have to take care of everything?

DON'T I DESERVE A GETAWAY TOO? 

OMG, selfish pricks.

I don't care man. 

I'm going to confront her tonight. 

Time for me to be selfish. 

And you know what ? Each time I go out & come back slightly late like about 12.15/12.30, they fucking make noise as if I've been out doing drugs.

Wthell man. 

Always asking me not to compare with others, then why the hell you wanna go compare?

And please lah, it's not like I go out and don't come back. 

If you don't wanna wait up then give me the fucking key man.

Seriously, I'm gonna be 20 next year, not 10! 

Ugh.

Really, so damn selfish it just gets on my nerves. 

And it's only three days. 

Sat, Sun and Monday.

And parents these days are so damn demanding & unreasonable.

They want us kids to do our best & bring back A's yet they place unnecessary stressors in our lives.

"Don't need to worry about money, just study"

That phrase is bullshit. 

Because every single time I have to either ikat perut or don't buy the things I need to buy. 

My Touch N Go no more cash in it. 

When I ask my parents, they ask me go top up myself. 

Fucking shit, I barely have enough to save & you want me to top up for msyelf?

And when I wanna claim for stuff I bought for the house, you fucking tell me it's for the house, you using it also wert. 

Don't fucking lecture me on saving & going out less cause the reason why I don't have much to save it's cause I have to freakin' pay for most of the stuff myself. 

Ugh, so sick of this man. 

Trust me, I will find a part time job when I have the time to go search for one.

So that i can get my own friggin' cash to spend.

After all, I have to friggin' take care of myself right? It already feels like I'm living alone anyways.

Not like you give a damn whether I have enough cash to go eat and whatnots.

Parents shouldn't belittle the amount of stress that we young adults go through. 

Working life is stressful I know but it doesn't make our stress any less. 

We are transitioning to another phase in life which requires adaptation. 

Now that is stressful as well okay. 

If you don't believe me, read up on Stress & Health in my Psychology book man. 

That's all I have to blog about now. 

Just needed to get it out again.

If only my head can light up like a freakin Ghost Rider when I'm pissed, I bet I'd have my way with everything.

Rights, I'd better get my ass back to studying.

Ciaoz yo!

Up In Smokes

He was smoking.

Something I never knew he did.

I was shocked in seeing him smoke like a smoker who has smoked for a few years.

You can almost tell by the way he holds the cigarette stick.

I couldn't believe it so I went straight up to him and snatched the ciggie away.

Threw it to the ground but he got pist & asked some other girl for a cig. 

I was stunned.

Something I never knew all these while is now revealing itself one way or another. 

The best part was that he knew I hated smokers.

That was what I dreamt about this morning.

What a dream aye? 

Buttt, haha, it will always be just a dream because I know he will NEVER touch a cigarette.

Having these kind of dreams make me question the real meaning behind it tho. 

Like, is it trying to tell me something? 

Cause I'm pretty sure I wasn't thinking of cigarettes AT ALL! Lol.

Oh wells, I'll just leave it as a dream. 

No point in thinking too much about it. 

Worrying does not take away tomorrow's troubles, it takes away today's peace.

So to those who worry about every single thing, try not to alright? :)

So my morning was a bit of a bummer, woke up to the alarm that I set but went back to sleep for a "few minutes" and ended up waking up at 7.10am :O

Was a bit late soo, haha, had to speed up.

And I'm back on the road driving again. 

I don't have much problems with driving itself but I do have problems with drivers and the roads.

Roads in Malaysia are horrible. 

Potholes here and there.

Yeah I know it's unavoidable to have potholes but come on, fix the damn thing man. 

It's freaking annoying having to avoid this and that when there are many cars. Pfft. 

I came across this website which is an organisation that is dedicated to fixing potholes.

It's a website where you can lodge a report on which area has potholes and stuff. 

If I'm not mistaken they also have a hotline where you can call and report straight.

Maybe Malaysia should have something like that you know. 

Every road shouldn't have potholes.

Have you ever driven on the road towards the King's palace? 

It's freaking nice. 

Properly tarred with nice OBVIOUS yellow lines and street lights.

Every road should be like that.

Some of the lines on the road can't even be seen. 

And this can really cause a lot of confusion. 

You can be travelling on the wrong side of the road and you wouldn't even know. 

If it's a road that you always take, then it's fine but how about those who are not familiar with the place? 

These are the little things that can be done to improve road experiences. 

Another thing I wanna bring up is the bumps. 

Some bumps are so freaking high and they're not painted! 

>=(

Drivers would have to brake like mad if they're not aware of the bump ahead. 

Heck, some even fly over bumps. 

DANGEROUS is the word here.

If it's hard to paint stripes on the bump, just paint the whole friggin thing in yellow!

It is advertised everywhere that drivers should drive safe yet the roads are like crap. 

Zzzz -________-

Nonetheless, the roads are not solely to be blamed for accidents and such. 

Drivers these days are also freaking idiotic. 

There is a reason why signals are made. DUH!

It's easy to use & it won't bite. 

If you wanna go left, switch on the signal that points to the left. Vice versa. 

Seriously, I have no idea why is it SO hard to just indicate where you want to go. 

If there ain't any cars then alright, it's understandable but if you want to cut, put your bloody signal will u ?

I get so annoyed every single time a person doesn't put the signal and just park it's ass in front of me. 

-_____________-

Just like this morning when I was on the way to uni. 

This car on my left wanted to cut because there wasn't any car in front of me. 

I noticed that she wanted to cut cause she was coming close but wtheck, I waited for her to go and she doesn't wanna go. 

And when I finally move, she wants to cut again -_-

Honked her in her face. 

Already tolerated her no-signal-intention to cut and that's all I'm gonna give. 

I don't care what car you drive, as long as you don't put your signal there's no way I'm gonna let you cut. 

Not even in your dreams. 

Pfft.

One last very important thing.

Backlights. 

Drivers out there please make sure your backlights are working aight. 

Cause there was one incident where I had to brake quite hard just because the van's backlights weren't working. 

Therefore I didn't know he was slowing down or wtv shit. 

Wanna avoid accidents or some surprise butt attack on your car's butt, please do your part. 

Saves the hassle of exchanging numbers, paying for this and that. 

I'll blog more later. 

Lunch  now. 

Ciao!

Take That Look Off Your Face

 Nai nai nai, do I look tired? :O

Or do I look like I aged? :O :O 

Omg omg. 

I don't wanna look old! 

I don't mind looking younger than I am but pfft, I don't want to look too kiddy. LOL. 

Fussy much ? LOL. 

I am surprised that my tiredness can be seen through my face! :O 

Omg, mask dysfunction! 

Bleuks! 

Need a new one. 

It's hard to get good ones these days. Sighs. 

I know what I need but it ain't gonna happen for me lol. 

Right now, I just wanna eat man LOL. 

My current craving, a new entry, is the KFC's Pocketful :D 

Heh, can't wait to get it xD

I miss eating sweets. 

Fuhh last Friday, a few gobstoppers xD 

My favourite sweet xD 

Heeeeheeee, they used to have them in Cold Storage I think. 

Then now it's not there anymore :( 

I saw some at the grocer at Giza. Haha so tempting to go there and get them xD

Somehow I have this craving for sweets all the time =/

It ain't good as I have to control my sugar intake. Sighs. 

Wish I didn't have any diabetic history -_-

So yeah I was curious about why I want candies so much. 

Found out that it elevates mood  *oooohhh*

A possible explanation would be that eating sugar increases the absorption rate of an amino acid called  tryptophan. 

That amino acid, tryptophan, is actually used by our body to make serotonin.

So an increase in absorption rate of that amino acid results in more serotonin.

So that explains why mood is elevated when sweets are taken. 

Haha, whoa so scientific. PFFT. 

I'm not even gonna get started on explaining serotonin now. 

Kinda gtg now. 

Maybe, just maybe I'll blog about it in the near future xD

Ciao the mao! 

Preoccupied

These days, things as simple as gratitude is missing.
Gratitude for food, shelter and whatnots.
I often find myself questioning these behaviours & perhaps I've come up with a theory or two on my own.
Personally, I think it has to do with the mind.
The preoccupied mind.
A preoccupied mind which consist of the could have's, should have's and would have's.
Usually the preoccupied mind will only be present during mid life crisis which clearly most young people nowadays aren't.
Teenagers are usually occupied with finding their identity and sense of purpose but now, I guess it is slightly different since life actually gets more complicated as you grow older.

So yeah, being preoccupied with those things in mind, I guess one has the tendency to lose focus on the positives that are happening before their very eye.
It's almost like driving and texting.
Texting is what the driver is preoccupied with and when you're texting you lose focus.
Then when you lose focus, that's when accidents happen.
The same concept goes with being preoccupied ; you'll miss out on the present.

Yesterday's gone, today's here, tomorrow is yet to come.
We should never dwell on what happened the day before.
Everyday is a new day.
I know I said tomorrow is yet to come but sometimes you'll never be too sure.
Today might be your last day and you won't even know it.
We've got cases of young people dying of heart attack. People as young as 20 + .
So are you sure you want to be preoccupied with what should/could/would happen if another path was taken?
You might miss out on what's right in front of you.
Just sayin'.

There's also a reason why our development pattern is in an ascendant manner.
Don't live your life backwards. Neither should you live your life stagnant.
Challenges are placed in front of you for you to overcome.
Pushing them away won't make them go away.
After all, how far can you run? Can't be running your entire life now, can you ?
I've personally learnt from facing challenges.
Yes, there may be times where you just won't feel like doing anything but hey, rest for a while & get back up cause the cold hard truth is, no one is ever gonna really be able to help you.
We all have the control over our own lives, minds and thoughts.
It depends on how well you handle it.
I didn't handle it very well when I was faced with challenges or rough patterns but I made it.
Getting back up on my own two feet right now :)

The world might be a cruel place to live in but don't let it make you a cold hearted person.
Instead, bring warmth to the world.
You'd be amazed at how satisfied you'll feel later on.
Least when you die, you'd know that you contributed something to your world :)

Tuttt!

First tutorial class started late. 

Half an hour late. 

And I thought i was late LOL. 

Guess what my tutor's name is?

Ms Prescious :D 

So anyways, tutorial was fine. 

Maybe just a little boring. LOL. 

Was completely not prepared for tuto class. 

Heh, oh wells, first class is to get the feel of the class anyways. LOL. 

Omg you know what's totally random? 

The fact that I've just realised I've been using a lot of exclamation marks ! :O

The person to blame?

Mr Andrew Chong, who is now in German class, something that we were supposed to do together. Pfft.

I noticed that only after I met him I started using exclamation marks. 

My exclamation marks are usually reserved for scolding or shouting through the com but now it's not LOL. 

It's amazing how one person walks in your life and everything changes.

I know I still owe an update on what happened last week xD

Maybe sometime later tonight? 

That's if I even have time. 

Still as busy busy busy! 

Need to nerd away. 

Gotta go now.

And whoa don't you think the shape of my post looks like a spinning top ? 

haha, ciao! 

Strawberries!

The sudden craving for strawberries! 

Oh the taste of sweet strawberries coated in chocolate and whip cream. 

I can only dream of it since in Malaysia the strawberries are not that sweet. Lol. 

Sweet tooth. I have that :)

Love sweet stuff. 

Not only food tho ;)

Love the sweet things my boy does for me altho it's small things like whispering "I Love You" randomly.

Those random forehead kisses, hand kisses and all makes my heart melt. 

:)

Can't wait to see him later. 

Maybe, just maybe Imma go for dessert. 

Maybe some Wondermilk cupcakes? xD 

Haha we shall see about that :)

You know, today I was late again for class.

And I felt so bad cause it's the last class for the subject Career Guidance and I forgot to bring the book as I was rushing :(

Sorry Mr. Justin. 

Then met up with my boy to settle some subject enrolling stuff and went for lunch. 

Guess who I met there? 

I saw Megan!! :D 

It's been ages since I last saw her!

Chit chat for a bit and ate lunch and went for class. 

My first Marketing class :)

The lecturer's pretty okay.

It's good that she has a lot of energy lecturing about marketing. Keeps me awake :)

Oh oh and my baby came to class with me today :D

Heeee ^^

I'm so tired now. 

And the weather isn't helping at all. 

I tried to take a nap just now but somehow my brain decided that napping is a waste of time. 

Bleh, Imma go nap a while now. 

Hopefully this 20 minutes of sleep doesn't turn into an hour. LOL. 

Ciao!